Unbearable stress!

你好!
如果能够选择，我宁愿 不要考O水准。因为，我知道自己不行，并只会使得自己更加丢脸，更加自卑啦都。

Frankly I dont want to take my O levels examinations this year.
Ive already got the concept of, Ill drop higher chinese next year since some of them has already decide to drop it. But I promise Ill give my best shot to it.
I think on one hand i might have already prepared myself mentally, physically.
But on the other hand i am wanting to give this paper up.

Yeh anyway had intensive chinese lessons today. The more ms tan mentions about the paper, the more my brains get screwed up.
Likelihood, Ill give up on higher chinese next year.
Since my aim is to get into Singapore poly's biomedical science course.
So higher chinese is like useless in poly, since your L1 must be English. So what for I continue it next year. Like what Mr goh said, even if you get A1 for O levels and still want to drop higher chinese, he would still let us go.

I think Ill confirm my decision on wednesday, after the paper.
Hopefully, listening comphrehension's paper would pull my marks up to at least a B3. At least a B it wont be so embarrasing than a C. *cross fingers*

Oh back to the topic, after lessons, headed for dance practice.
Lunched and went for rehearsal. Was quite successful i could say and yeh I think ive done my best. The finale is honestly, very very lame.
Im off to do my 12 questions of composition. By tomorrow, i must hand it in wtf.

YAY TML. CHEN LAO SHI (GIRL) HAHAHAH.
IM DAMN FREAKING HAPPY, HAPPY!

Thanks to all those who wished me good luck, hopefully on wednesday, ladyluck is shining on me. And she would give me good inspirations for composition, letter writing as well as paper 2.
Currently, the more i do, the more my brains get screwed up.
HOW. YOU HELP ME EH.
Sorry to ms tan ps, i think ill disappoint you.):

This is so boring, im off to my books.
xoxo.

tomorrow will be a better day, hopefully.